
Before I was a Mom
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Before I was a Mom
I made and ate hot meals.
I had unstained clothing.
I had quiet conversations on the phone.
Before I was a Mom,
I slept as late as I wanted
And never worried about how late I got into bed.
I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday.
Before I was Mom
I cleaned my house each day.
I never tripped over toys or forgot words of lullabies.
Before I was a Mom
I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.
Before I was a Mom
I had never been puked on
Pooped on
Spit on
Chewed on
Peed on
Or pinched by tiny fingers
Before I was a Mom
I had complete control of:
My thoughts
My body
And my mind.
I slept all night.
Before I was a Mom
I never held down a screaming child
So that doctors could do tests or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.
Before I was a Mom
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put it down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces
When I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small
Could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.
Before I was a Mom
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.
I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond between a Mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small
Could make me feel so important.
Before I was a Mom
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay
I had never known the warmth
The joy
The love
The heartache
The wonder
Or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mom.
2 comments:
hi,how are you.I have some problems i want to hear your advise. I'm a college girl, and i dont want to be at my college anymore.i dont like what i learn everyday and i hate people around me.i just want to run away, and control my own life.but what can i possibly do?i dont have anything..god help me,i'm so afraid and depreesed
to anonymous: Although this is a blog about mothers with post-partum depression...go talk to your school counselor. It could be that you've chosen the wrong major & would be better suited to some other line of study. Do you have a pastor to talk to? Resist the urge to drop out. I started out an accounting major. After 2 years I realized that I didn't like accounting. I did not go as far in college, as I now wish I had. I regret it because there was a job I really wanted to apply for last week, but I did not have the advanced deree reqired. Going back to school later is challenging. Trying to go to school while supporting yourself & a family, holding down a full time job, and getting homework done is not easy. You say you want to control your own life. Unfortunately life is full of times when you are not in control. You will have to be under subjection of your boss in the work place, then when you have children you will be bound to take care of your parental duties. You're in a stressful & difficult time, but it will get better.
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